Pathways: January 2012

Sunday, January 29, 2012

Today I'll Cry

Today I heard the front door close

you walked out of my life…

We both knew someone had to go

I couldn’t leave my wife…

We tried so hard to find a way

something to hold on to…

Last night while looking in your eyes

I knew it would be you…

You made the choice to set us free

how hard that must have been...

Today I’ll lay and cry a while

my mourning will begin...

Another Day

For months I’ve tried to understand

these feelings held for you

I've tried to make them go away

I don’t know what to do

There is no place for our embrace

I clearly understand

But when I say I’ll go away

then no, my heart demands

I have to gather courage now

to turn and walk away

The truth is that I will not go

I’ll stay another day

Sweet Amy

Sweet Amy….it’s now time

to set each other free…

For too long we have hurt

and chosen not to see

Running from each other

then standing face to face

Each day we hurt some more

here in this wretched place

You couldn't close your heart

I couldn’t let you go

We couldn’t cross the line

I guess we'll never know

Thursday, January 26, 2012

Eyes To See

Today was much like yesterday

another day to hide...

The feelings anchored to my soul

carrying wounded pride

I try my best to wear the mask

and hope she doesn’t see

Yet deep inside my heart I know

my love has eyes to see

It’s hard to carry on each day

when all I do is cry

But even though you see no tears

there is a flood inside

Copyright © 2012 Jon Arno

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Suicide

My days pass by without much change

the loneliness my friend

Each day I try to rearrange

but fate it wins again

I try to hide behind a smile

pretending all is well

My mind it tells me I am vile

then struggles to dispel

I feel I am a prisoner

oh how do I get free?

The cartridge in the cylinder

a fitting choice for me

Copyright © 2012 Jon Arno

Monday, January 23, 2012

So Much In Love

Today I saw something new in your eyes

The windows were open, and I could see…

Incredible love… a burning furnace…

Your smile confirmed... it was ok to view

Oh how amazing to see this great sight!

For so very long,…your feelings were veiled

You hid your secret and guarded your heart…

And now….I’m undone…and so much in love

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

The Old Family Home

Today I stopped by the old family home

time had taken its toll…

The white picket fence now lies on the ground

the windows, broken holes …

There are no more sounds of children playing

Everything’s dull and grey…

The old oak swing I sat on for hours

the rope is torn and frayed…

I can't believe I’ve been gone for so long

thirty years have now past
It seems I traded my dreams for their time

the dreams, they didn't last…

Oh what I would give to turn back the time

If only for a day…

To see Mother smile when Daddy came home

Sunday, January 1, 2012

Broken Friend

I went to see a broken friend

to say how much I cared

But when I saw her in her room

a shell is all I found

So fragile was this friend of mine

she often could not cope

The storms engulfed her mind each day

no balm could heal her wounds

How sad to see her brokenness

she now was numb to life

Her spirit left this world one day